Sorry deviants, if any of you even care…

Lots of things lately have caused me to take some time off of designing, don’t get me wrong, I still love designing and I have made new works that you haven’t see3n yet but I have not got them posted for many reasons.

Lately I have been falling into a depression, I find myself spilling away into a deeper hole of feelings and emotions that have been causing me to see the negative side of many things in this world, I have taken a new perspective on life in the past months, I am struggling with my feeling and with my parents resent divorce I have been split into living in two different homes, I no longer have privacy and because of these events I haven’t been able to focus on school, it seems like everyone hates me now, I can’t help but run the thoughts thought my head that that is very well possible, I can’t keep the negative side of things out of my mind even thought I realize that I in-fact have been focusing on these things. Recently I have had some very unrest full terrible nights and everything seems to be accumulating since I got back in school, sometimes I feel like I want to sleep forever or just die… I know these thoughts are bad and that I should do whatever possible to fix these aspects of my life but I feel motivation to even live slipping away, is it really possible for me then to focus on fixing these things, even some of these things I couldn’t fix anyway. I will be trying as hard as I can to post new artwork here in the future but don’t be mad if it’s all dark work since that is what I have been feeling.

If things keep happening the way they are then I fear that I may only fall deeper into depression or if things accumulate that I will breakdown and collapse…